That’s what I can describe my mindset as of late.
Things feel like such a tailspin these days. But in a good way. I’ve been spending a lot of time updating my Team RoxStar website, and finally organizing the Facebook fan page. I also need to get back onto doing my videos etc and have some new ideas to put out. It’s so crazy how doing a show (or 4 lol) really takes so much of one’s time. But you know what, I can’t ever complain because I’m doing what I love and I’m lucky enough to make a living off of it. So there’s no complaint on my end.
I just can’t get over this immense feeling of empowerment in my workouts as of late. I mean my drive is back. My will to reach my best is back. I’m not sure where it went, but for a while I kind of lost it. Now every rep, every contraction, every bead of sweat that forms on my brow feels backed by the fact that I’m doing something great. Something that comes natural to me.
As of tomorrow, I am officially 19 weeks out from my next show. 7 to 8 of those weeks will be really focused on bringing up my upper body, and streamlining my lower body. The remaining weeks will be left to prep. After looking back at my photos from this past season, I think the look I liked best was at the NPC California State:
The only reason I think I like this look over Nationals is because for Nats, I really didn’t give my all in my training. I was really trying to mask my body and had to basically scale back everything from dieting to training in order to come in what is “softer” for me. And although it looks good, I’d rather be able to just work and kill it and come in T-I-G-H-T!
So I’m going to of course make some adjustments (like for instance, I fixed that BOTCHED ass posing from the Cals), capping out the shoulders more, creating a smaller waist and a better V taper, and just streamlining the legs. My legs, the bane of my existence.
Transformation 3.0 in 3… 2…. 1…..