(hopefully Erik doesn’t see this, lol) and I woke up feeling drunk or something. Well I didn’t actually feel like anything until I was at the barre. Because I couldn’t pick up any choreography to save my life, and I also was so off my leg (meaning my balance sucked monkey ballz) all class, lol. I couldn’t help but laugh at myself. But that’s what I get for trying to be slick. I had some coffee this morning, and I think that it contributed to it. For some odd reason, the last two times I’ve had coffee, I feel like I’m intoxicated from it. Like I can’t keep up with my body and all coordination goes out the door. But after an hour or so I feel back to normal.So my workout today was another circuit. I was supposed to hit my Ultra High Volume circuit today (the 1000 rep one), but I didn’t have my TRX with me, and I hate using the War Machine that we have at the gym. So instead, I rocked out with a interval timer app that I downloaded to my phone and did a total body circuit. I did each circuit with no rest between, so my heart rate was up the entire time! I was sweating so much by the end I felt like I had spent an hour on a cardio machine.
I’m really loving this new pace in my workouts. It feels good to come at this with a whole new angle and agenda. Everyday my body is changing. I’m losing weight, getting leaner, and smaller. Today’s weight was 134.4. That’s down 3 lbs in a week and a half. 
You know what’s going to happen… August/Sept is going to get here, and I’m going to be where I need to be physically and that’s not going to be fun anymore. So maybe I should consider slowing the hell down. But you know the body, can’t predict anything at all. However I can say that I’m really happy with how things are progressing right now, and I’m going to live in that.
Today I was watching a documentary that Beyonce made called Year of 4. It followed her through her creation of her newest album. Of course, I’m watching it and I know a lot of her dancer, former classmates and collegues of mine at one point or another. Seeing those things always takes me into this bizarro world of what else I could be doing with my life. Then I realize it’s not my path because I know what the life is behind the scenes and I just am not hungry enough to work for it. But she inspires me so very much. She’s so sweet when you meet her, and she’s just a kind person. She so passionate about what she does, and she’s smart as hell. One thing she said that really touched me is that (I’m paraphrasing) you have to be extremely passionate about whatever you do. Because if you don’t find joy in it, or it doesn’t make you happy, you have to ask why you’re even doing it in the first place.
Exactly.
I love health, I love fitness, I love working out, I love and live to inspire others. That’s my life, everyday. It’s my career. It’s what I sleep, breathe, eat, and do. It’s me. So the passion is there. I now just need to believe in what I have, see the potential in it, and allow myself to fearlessly and unabashedly live moment to moment in it.